Montag, 28. Februar 2011

A Week in the Life of Doci, Volume 3 - Sunday

Ah even more boring day..sorry xD didn't even take many photos...hmm or even interesting ones..coz I feel the best when I am just lying around after work. Unfortunately I am not able to sleep well here....It's not insomnia..but it's close to it maybe..although I don't know why..uhm

Ate ramen today..and noticed they are quite digestive...and make my tummy hurt for some seconds...horrible...


but I wonder what ingredients cause that pain and digestive effect.....
I wondered about that uhm...


Also had a shower again...


 also cleaned my keyboard in the afternoon..well work was so stressful today..since I lack at sleep and also got annoyed at work due to several incidents..and it made me agressive I had to do the dusting in my room and clean one of my windows etc to get rid of that agression o_O
but somehow I didnt clean the keyboard properly..coz I got tired of it..well just do it every day a little bit and then it might work out eventually

You can totally see what button I press often and which nit at at all. Also interesting is the space key....seems like even there I have spots I press more often than others..XD

Also I did....


Relaxing...since my feet hurt all day long till I have to go to work again the next morning...>___>
but see...my second toes next to the big ones are also bigger O__O scary...
and yes I know my feet are pale and look quite manly..I wouldnt be able to wear tight woman shoes xD

and oh..of course just drinking coffee again...important! XD


Maybe tomorrow if I am not so tired I am able to get my ass 50 meter north directly in front of my workplace to take some pics of the baltic sea...yeah its directly in front of my but  I have no efforts to go there coz my home is the opposite direction XD

Ok that's all..will watch one more episode code geass oô

Sonntag, 27. Februar 2011

A Week in the Life of Doci, Volume 2 - Saturday

Apart from other people I had to work yesterday (Saturday) and also have to work today...so
my day was kinda boring in pictures and I also forgot to take my digicam to my workplace coz I wanted to take a pic of my locker xD
Well I will try not to forget it today...
so what I did is...

Got up at 5.20am..actually I only slept 1 1/2 hours or something but then my radio alarm clock turned on...well it didn't really woke me up..until the song on that radio channel was over and some polish people started talking..all of a sudden I opened my eyes and was like "WTF NOT AGAIN A POLISH CHANNEL!" Well if you search for radio channels you usually don't know if it's a german or polish one when the songs are famous ones...but waking up with some polish people talking you don't understand at all is a nightmare..so..well that's it.
Drank a coffee in my bed and went to work with my collegue who has her room next to mine...well we don't work in the same building but since we have the same way and the same shift we went together there at 6am.
Today our cat at work vomitted..so the first thing I did was cleaning that..coz my other collegues were disgusted by that and almost vomitted themself next to it with the thought they had to clean it...lmao
It's funny coz they are handling with fecals every day but can't wipe off puke. XD
Okay after work was over at 3.15pm I went to NETTO (discounter supermarket) to buy some important food...yeah



What you call important..not really...but I had to buy bread, milk for my coffee, my favourite meat of 2010 (the krustenbraten!!) and..well anything else is wasted stuff I only enjoy eating to get fat Haha xDD oh and something to drink..but well..

Then I went to bed at 5pm coz I was so tired (before I noticed how long my finger and toe nails got..so I cut them)..Woke up again at 10pm


Ate some bread with my top meat of 2010 XD


while watching DSDS (like the german version of american idol)

 with Patrick Nuo..mmmh..XD nice stripes with digicam lol

also went out in front of my house door several times to smoke a cigarette

 
and oh today at work I hurt myself...it was bleeding a lot!! D: well that's a lie..but it hurt a lot xD



Anyway....boring day isn't it? So now I will maybe watch 1 or 2 episodes of Code Geass and then sleep for 3 more hours coz sunday means..early shift as well dumdumdum XD

Samstag, 26. Februar 2011

A Week in the Life of Doci, Volume 1 - Friday


Starting the 1 week meme..well its a challenge coz my week will be boring coz I have to work for 7 days in row now till next friday *coughs*

BE PREPARED. I AM A BORING PERSON with a boring life! XD
So I was starting..well its rather from last night before I went to bed but it was after midnight and I just went to bed at 5am or something so...

I was enjoying nice chocolate while watching tegami bachi reverse episode 19 + 20. XD



and then somehow I chatted till 5am and went to bed.. o_O
Woke up at ..I think 2.30pm something..


Yeah I know I am a messy girl XDD

Then I enjoyed a tuna pizza in my bed at 3.30pm or something


Actually I also ate that last piece but only after eating the rest I noticed: Hell, you wanted to take a photo of your pizza xDDD

Then at 5pm I also had some spagetti my mum made with cinnamon and sugar..and then my mum took me to the train station at 6pm coz I have early shift tomorrow. I played golden sun for 2 hours till I arrived at 8.45pm on my island and also in my plain room XD


After arranging my luggage I went for a shower right away o.o


My feet look weird somehow o.o Its because I wore tight socks..lool Thrombosis-Prophylaxis NOT! XD

And after having a short talk and 2 cigarettes with my collegue who is living in the room next to mine ( we also share the kitchen which has no microwave or oven)  I made myself a coffee...and ate that delicious yoghurt xD


and then somewhen at 10pm I have started watching Code Geass.


Well actually I would say its not that epic..At least it's not that epic so far. It's hard for me to follow all the gudam thingy attacks and orders. In English it's even harder to understand..but in the end it's not important I guess coz I see what they do anyway...just SHOOT DAMNIT
Can't it be that easy like in Tegami Bachi??  シンダン装填!!

And now I wonder if I should go to bed although I need to get up in 5 hours anway or go to bed and will be hell tired when I have to get up o_O
Since I can't get sleepy at work coz I am busy all the time it doesn't matter...It's rather a question of health...
I do this often..either sleeping not at all for more than 24hours or sleep for like 12 and more hours. I read that people who sleep too much or too less will die earlier o.o But well...what means time...

Freitag, 25. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 10

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart

DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. I
2. DO
3. NOT
4. CARE
5. WHAT
6. YOU
7. THINK
8. ABOUT
9 ME
10. HMKAY?

okay the 10th word was..just a filler xD
I think I will start the 10days meme like Vanü and Rami o.o It's a challenge for my boring life xD

Donnerstag, 24. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 9

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs

DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. Cook something I love for me o.o (for example: Pudding)
2. If you have the singing voice I love and look like that person (which is both impossible) you already have my heart xD
3. Give me a massage o.o I know it hurts me coz It's rare I get one but in the end it feel nice so..good way maybe xD
4. Do anything in household for me I suck at..eg cooking, cleaning the bathroom o_O
5. Buy chocolate for me xD
6. I appreciate people who listen to what I have to say..though in this world it seems to have become rare oO;
7.  Try to read my mood..it's not really difficult to realize what mood I am in when I am online.  No smiley means = Doci is rather in a serious, moody mood. :O Then I am glad if you leave me alone and don't bother me with your problems.
8. I don't mind if you have a different opinion than I do but please have proper arguments so I can at least understand your opinion. I hate such people who can't even explain their own opinion properly...
9. Don't just write to me when you need something from me. I hate that. If you are a real friend you can talk to me just to ask things like how have I been, can't you? It makes me happy if people think of me although we weren't in contact for a while.
10. Be honest to yourself and don't act as if you are someone else..

Montag, 21. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 8

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people

DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. Nishikido Ryo - half down
2. SIAM SHADE  - LIFE
3. Kanjani8 - Rolling Coaster
4. SIAM SHADE - Bloody train
5. DETROX - flashback
6. HIDEKI - tomo yo
7. Kanjani8 - PUZZLE
8. DIR EN GREY - the final (it's nostagic o.o)
9. Yutaka Ozaki - Boku ga Boku de Aru Tame ni (it somehow became one of my favourites maybe o.O)
10. WANDS - Sekai ga owaru made wa...

There are probably a lot missing..if I think of western songs..it's tough..XDD coz I have many english songs I love to listen to as well o.o
You see any pattern in my favourite tracklist? Well..yeah I cheated 4 of 10 songs have Hideki's voice but I can't change it LMAO

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 7

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes

DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. My mum
2. My brother
3. My sister
4. My cousin (I have at least one I can't live without)
5. Hideki (yes ö__ö he gives meaning to my life as well XD)
6. My niece (actually all 3 of them :P)
7. Ha-chan (at least my internet life would be senseless. I never had a online life without her so it would be meaningless life)
8. My stepsis (as well xD)
9. My friends (well at least the ones I am close with and heres not enough space to write their names down XD)
10. My Siam Shade buddies (coz without them fandom would be dead like hell XD)

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 6

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes

DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. My laptop
2. Coffee
3. Music
4. Sleep
5. My love <3
6. TV (although there is only shit on XD)
7. Creative people who produce creative stuff like books, mangas, animes, movies, series in general
8. microwave!! what a nice invention *_*
9. Food and water..well I hate water but it's necessary for ones life? XD
10. Motivation (otherwise Life won't make sense?)

Crap I have to do it quicker xD at least DAY 7 now as well.

Freitag, 18. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 5

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person

DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

1. Getting along well with my collegues and do everything right >__<
2. Getting the fucking driver licence so that this nightmare comes to an end
3. A SIAM SHADE REUNION <3 <3 <3 but that wish probably will never come true...tze
4. Seeing Hideki at least once in my life live on stage oô
5. Surviving the next 2 1/2 years as well
6. Stay healthy
7. Hope my family stays healthy as well
8. Having less stress and air to breathe (which is probably not possible unless I give up everything XD)
9. Money? Well money is always useful ..LOL
10. Sex with Hideki I don't know any more wishes o__o;

Donnerstag, 17. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 4

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

10 Things to one person only? Really hard isn't it..let's see. XD
  1. Thanks for being there for me when I am down..although I know you don't realize that I am glad that you are there for me.
  2. Sometimes it makes me sad though that you ignore me
  3. Thanks for always making me laugh with your words
  4. I wonder what I am for you? Am I something special for you? I don't think so but that's okay.
  5. Don't you sometimes feel tired about your life and lifestyle? But then again..I am not much that different from you.
  6. I want that your wish comes true although I don't know what your dream is and where are you heading to.
  7. I don't want to lose you, coz you are so precious to me. 
  8. I sometimes hate how you are so ridiculous and stubborn although I admire that you go your own way without being scared of failing.
  9. I wonder what my life would look like if I didn't meet you.. but probably it would be the same because there would be someone else as your replacement? However..I don't want to imagine and as long as you are there...it doesn't even make sense.
  10. Keep going your own way and I will follow.
Jesus, is it obvious who I mean? I don't think so but it's good like this. :D
And no I won't allow quizzing..it should stay a secret.

Mittwoch, 16. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 3

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words
  1. Spiders
  2. Licorice
  3. malicious gossip
  4. getting ignored
  5. too less sleep
  6. driving
  7. german assi tv
  8. sometimes my mum coz she never encouraged me once in my life with stuff like "You will make it!" instead it was discouraging
  9. my messiness I am not able to keep my room clean. It always looks horrible after some days..or hours...
  10. the unknown future

Dienstag, 15. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 2

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words
  1. Siam Shade (I think it's the one thing I love the most xD sounds sad but I just love them too much)
  2. My family (even though they can be disturbing sometimes)
  3. Japanese (Though I think I won't ever be able to understand it perfectly XDD)
  4. Coffee (I can't explain but I drink it like water...but it has no effect on me anymore uhm XD)
  5. Translating (I don't know..it makes me feel happy after finishing another entry again. It's like I have done something I can be proud of) 
  6. Listening to Music (Especially to catchy and nostalgic music. Doesn't matter which genre when I have a memory with it..like right now..BAILAMOOOOOS XDDD
  7. Sleeping (well depends sometimes I dont want to sleep coz I consider it a waste...but well o.O)
  8. Watching and reading anime/manga/doramas o_o etc...though I am biased lately towards anime/manga
  9. Relaxing (coz the world is too busy..we need to chill more in life XD)
  10. Saving money. (I like to see how it grows and grows o.o)

Montag, 14. Februar 2011

10 DAYS ABOUT ME MEME // DAY 1

Von Vanü geklaut XD

DAY 1: Ten things about you
DAY 2: Ten things you love
DAY 3: Ten things you hate
DAY 4: Ten things you want to say to one person
DAY 5: Ten wishes
DAY 6: Ten items you can’t live without
DAY 7: Ten important people
DAY 8: Ten of your favorite songs
DAY 9: Ten ways to win your heart
DAY 10: Final 10 words

  1. I have a weird scar close to my calf. Well I have that one since I was a child but I everytime I see it I wonder when and why I got it. Seriously don't know.
  2. I have a hard obsession with beautiful japanese middle-aged vocalists (I don't need to give my personal two examples here? XD Well they are both 0-Types..which makes it even worse XD)
  3. My japanese is horrible. I just act as if I am could do it. Unfortunately people think I can..but I know it better.. o.o
  4. I love running around with only wearing one sock at home or none at all o.o
  5. I don't really know what it feels like to be lonely coz I like being alone and not getting bothered.
  6. I drink too much coffee and smoke too many cigarettes. I wonder if I can get rid of these drugs someday. Well at least getting rid of the cigarettes would be good.
  7. I can't imagine getting myself piercings or tattoos. I can't even wear earrings or necklaces anymore. When I was a child I wore earrings but actually imagining those again makes me feel all uneasy. o_O Though rings would be fine but I don't wear any. I am too simple..lol
  8. My teeth are my biggest foes.
  9. I used to play handball in a club many many years ago..for hmm 7 years.
  10. When I was a child I wanted to become a doctor XD Well at least I got myself a DOCTOR alike nick years later..*cough*

Sonntag, 13. Februar 2011

It's cold

..but sometimes I also have to let fresh air into my room.
It's probably just extremely cold because this idiot downstairs has opened the window too.
Feeling such fresh cold air on my skin...doesn't feel nice though..

Since I have started reading and watching a particular type of series again...I don't know why...but it makes me feel frustrated afterwards.
Actually, you should enjoy it...but somehow it has a totally different effect on me.
It's not like that I wonder if I go the right path in my life..or such questions..it's rather like..there is just one thing missing the whole world desires for anyway. But even so in my life it doesn't exist. It's not really frustrating me like that coz I wouldn't have time for a lover anyway but in all these series and blah..they always make it look like as if it was the ultimate...It's good enough for me to follow those fairytales but also those stories come to an end and then I don't have anything left except starting to read something new..while in my real world there is not even something similar to that. o__o
This makes me wonder if I had such an own fairy tale in RL I would stop reading other fairy tales. It's like an addiction..after finishing something you feel so empty you can't bear that it's over so you have to pick the next one.
Well well don't bother with that here..it's just stupid nonsense I am writing at 7am.

I think I am going to sleep now o.o

Freitag, 11. Februar 2011

今もこみ上げるのは 涙という名の愛しさ

I am so used to that voice..for some reason it feels weird...to imagine..
how I would think of this voice if I had another chance to hear it for the first time again.
That's because...I can't imagine what I thought in particular when I heard it for the first time.
I don't remember the moment either.
It seems so important to me right now..what I thought back then..coz I don't have the chance to experience it again.

It's like when you fall in love..you are excited..get to know this person more and more..different sides..but then you get used to it..think like you know everything. The love doesn't vanish but it feels like..there is nothing left anymore which surprises you. It's like..you know how the person will react in certain situations...but you are fine with that..you can't change it..but it doesn't bother you..coz you love the person the way he/she is.

Yes in fact, I have a serious and long very well going relationship with Hideki's voice. That's the point. lol
Actually I intended to stay serious and shut up about it..but it just sounds too absurd..so I couldn't. XD

This thoughts just came up when I listened to tomo yo. It felt like..well..a simple song with so much meaning and emotion inside. It made me think about some stuff..like that's actually the only song which is totally different..the pitch of his voice is different..it sounds gentler but also rougher..and deeper.
Oh well interesting what thoughts can come to my mind just by listening to one song.

Mittwoch, 9. Februar 2011

大阪レイニーブルース


1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
DIGITAL MASTER (Hideki)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
ZOMBOID (Dír en grey)  ..ooh lol stupid, invert, dull okay XDD

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
LOVESICK~You Don’t Know~ (SIAM SHADE)  oh yes! *__* XDD

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
極東より愛を込めて(Spread Love From the Far East) - BUCK-TICK ..which means I only like people from the far east? XDD

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
ギガマジメ我ファイト(GIGA MAJIME WAGA FIGHT) - 関ジャニ∞  ..so I guess good? XD though I am tired..lol

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
芽(sprout) - NICO touches the walls   Sprouting is my purpose? XD well gather experiences maybe

WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
CLOWN LOVES SENORITA - BUCK-TICK   says it all huh? XD

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
RISK (SIAM SHADE)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
白の呪文 (white charm) - doa      I dont think my mum thinks that I am pure o.o

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
PARAISO - 錦戸亮 & ジミーMacky   new to me that I think of the paradise xD

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
CONTINUE - BUCK-TICK

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BEST FRIEND?
So bad boys (Hideki)   RIGHT HIDEKI!!!! they are all bad boys xDD because only hideki understands my feelings lool

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
FILTH (Dir en grey)   I almost..spilled my coffee when I read that xDDD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
DREAM or TRUTH - BUCK-TICK  hell right you never know if its true or just a dream

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
錆びてきた(have become rusty) - NICO touches the walls   LOOL right xD

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Butterfly (和田光司)    yeees kouji wada knows what I feel too XD

WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Pulse/AwakE (404 NOT FOUND)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
HURRY UP MODE (Buck-tick)   *lmao* XD

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
RAIN (SIAM SHADE) yeah rain is nice isnt it <__>

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Märchen - Sakurai Atsushi  yeah right sakurai. I am afraid of fairy tales xD

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
HOOLIGAN (DETROX)  yes didnt you know yet that I am one? XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
A silent letter - L'arc en ciel   (Yeah preferably my blood type card xD

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
TIME's (SIAM SHADE)   Time's loneliness~~~ yeah time is running fast isnt it..

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Bottom of the death valley (DIR EN GREY)  D: see the pattern lol

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
LOVE (SIAM SHADE)  yes love is regretable isnt it xD

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
DNA (Hideki)  my dna makes me love? well technically its probably the reason why I like laughing about things others dont xD

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
あなた(You) - L'arc en ciel   YES!!! YOUUU whoever is reading this xxDDD

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED
裏切りのない世界まで(Until there is a world without betrayal) - RAYFLOWER   this means I wont marry I guess? XDDD

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
My baby Japanese - BUCK-TICK  yes I am afraid of my own japanese xDDDD

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
蘭鋳(Ranchuu) - ムック  a ranchuu likes me? a goldfish? XD good to know

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
UMBRELLA - BUCK-TICK  true..I was always annoyed by my ugly umrellas

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Happy?  - SIAM SHADE    so i guess nothing hurts xDD

WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS ENTRY?
大阪レイニーブルース(Osaka Rainy Blues) - 関ジャニ∞  okay! ö_Ö

Mittwoch, 2. Februar 2011

Lalelu

Wieso gibt es so viele Dinge, die die Masse liebt und ich verabscheue?
Verabscheue ich sie weil ich sie wirklich verabscheue oder nur weil ich nicht mit dem Strom schwimmen will.
Gut das wollte ich noch nie aber ich hab immer versucht mir eine eigene Meinung über Dinge zu bilden.
Letztendlich jedoch spreche ich selten meine Meinungen im wirklichen Leben aus, weil ich genau weiß, dass ich mit einigen dieser Meinungen allein wäre.
Online jedoch schrecke ich nich davor zurück meine Meinungen kundzugeben. Nein, ich denke nich dass es was damit zu tun hat, dass ich hier sicher bin...ich denke nur einfach, dass die Leute, die ich kenne und schätze mehr daran interessiert sind als die Leute, für die ich mich selbst nicht interessiere.
Sogesehen mag ich für die meisten Menschen in meinem Umfeld langweilig wirken, aber...das liegt nur daran dass ich mein wahres Ich nicht zeigen kann und möchte. Leute, die ich mag kriegen es zu sehen, andere nicht. Es reicht wenn ich mich vor Freunden lächerlich mache und nicht vor meiner ganzen Umwelt.

Über Dinge, die ich zur Zeit im realen Leben mache, rede ich nicht viel. Warum auch. Ich erinnere mich an eine Zeit wo Schule Thema Nummer 1 war und der damit verbundene Kummer mich halb zerfraß. In dem Sinne hab ich mich stark verändert..vllt liegts daran, dass ich bisher nur top Noten bekomme/bekommen habe, was nicht heißt dass es weniger stressig ist..im Großen und Ganzen ist der Alltag viel stressiger geworden. Schlafmangel gehört zum Alltag und dennoch hab ich Einschlafprobleme.
Zur Zeit ist es besser weil ich meist nur 10 Stunden pro Tag unterwegs bin. In der Regel wären es 12. Und in die restlichen 12 versuchte ich die letzten 3 Wochen immer Schlaf, Hausaufgaben und Freizeit zu stopfen. Die meiste Zeit investiere ich jedoch lieber in Freizeit als mit Schlaf, weil ich den Gedanken nicht ertragen kann tagein tagaus nur zur Schule zu gehen und dann zu schlafen..um wieder aufzustehen und zur Schule zu fahren. Wie gut, dass ich ab Freitag 2 Wochen Urlaub habe. Ich glaub ich brauch das wirklich..es ist schon 7 Monate her seitdem ich mehr als 4 Tage am Stück frei hatte..hmm...aber irgendwie bin ich motivierter geworden viel motivierter.

Und sonst privat...eigentlich keine Veränderungen..immer noch glücklicher Single, der auf makeup verzichtet und jeden tag wie ein schlafloser Zombie umherirrt. Die meiste Zeit verbringe ich mit Übersetzen..im Grunde isses das was meine gute Laune aufrecht erhält..bzw aufrecht erhalten hat, denn seit heute bin ich etwas mies auf eine gewisse Person zu sprechen.

Was ich heute genossen habe, ist das Schlürfen eines Milchkaffees in der Cafeteria im Krankenhaus im Beisammensein von Klassenkameraden meines Alters. Das war entspannend...denn zugegeben benehmen sich die anderen ihrem Alter entsprechend unreif und so länger der Tag wird desto aufgedrehter und frecher werden sie. Wie ein Kindergarten. Das kann einem ganz schön auf die Nerven gehen, wenn man unter Schlafmangel leidet und sie ständig die Autorität (den Lehrer) respektlos behandeln. Manchmal hab ich das Gefühl dass sie den falschen Beruf wählen. Aber gut, vllt wandelt sich da ja noch was.

So..mehr hab ich grad erstmal nicht zu erzählen o_o