今もこみ上げるのは 涙という名の愛しさ

I am so used to that voice..for some reason it feels weird...to imagine..
how I would think of this voice if I had another chance to hear it for the first time again.
That's because...I can't imagine what I thought in particular when I heard it for the first time.
I don't remember the moment either.
It seems so important to me right now..what I thought back then..coz I don't have the chance to experience it again.

It's like when you fall in love..you are excited..get to know this person more and more..different sides..but then you get used to it..think like you know everything. The love doesn't vanish but it feels like..there is nothing left anymore which surprises you. It's like..you know how the person will react in certain situations...but you are fine with that..you can't change it..but it doesn't bother you..coz you love the person the way he/she is.

Yes in fact, I have a serious and long very well going relationship with Hideki's voice. That's the point. lol
Actually I intended to stay serious and shut up about it..but it just sounds too absurd..so I couldn't. XD

This thoughts just came up when I listened to tomo yo. It felt like..well..a simple song with so much meaning and emotion inside. It made me think about some stuff..like that's actually the only song which is totally different..the pitch of his voice is different..it sounds gentler but also rougher..and deeper.
Oh well interesting what thoughts can come to my mind just by listening to one song.

大阪レイニーブルース

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.6. Have Fun!

SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
DIGITAL MASTER (Hideki)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
ZOMBOID (Dír en grey)  ..ooh lol stupid, invert, dull okay XDD

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
LOVESICK~You Don’t Know~ (SIAM SHADE)  oh yes! *__* XDD

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
極東より愛を込めて(Spread Love From the Far East) - BUCK-TICK ..which means I only like people from the far east? XDD

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
ギガマジメ我ファイト（GIGA MAJIME WAGA FIGHT) - 関ジャニ∞  ..so I guess good? XD though I am tired..lol

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
芽(sprout) - NICO touches the walls   Sprouting is my purpose? XD well gather experiences maybe

WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
CLOWN LOVES SENORITA - BUCK-TICK   says it all huh? XD

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
RISK (SIAM SHADE)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
白の呪文 (white charm) - doa      I dont think my mum thinks that I am pure o.o

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
PARAISO - 錦戸亮 & ジミーMacky   new to me that I think of the paradise xD

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
CONTINUE - BUCK-TICK

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR EX BOY/GIRL/BEST FRIEND?
So bad boys (Hideki)   RIGHT HIDEKI!!!! they are all bad boys xDD because only hideki understands my feelings lool

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
FILTH (Dir en grey)   I almost..spilled my coffee when I read that xDDD

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
DREAM or TRUTH - BUCK-TICK  hell right you never know if its true or just a dream

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
錆びてきた(have become rusty) - NICO touches the walls   LOOL right xD

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Butterfly (和田光司)    yeees kouji wada knows what I feel too XD

WHAT WILL YOU DO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Pulse/AwakE (404 NOT FOUND)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
HURRY UP MODE (Buck-tick)   *lmao* XD

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
RAIN (SIAM SHADE) yeah rain is nice isnt it <__>

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Märchen - Sakurai Atsushi  yeah right sakurai. I am afraid of fairy tales xD

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
HOOLIGAN (DETROX)  yes didnt you know yet that I am one? XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
A silent letter - L'arc en ciel   (Yeah preferably my blood type card xD

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
TIME's (SIAM SHADE)   Time's loneliness~~~ yeah time is running fast isnt it..

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Bottom of the death valley (DIR EN GREY)  D: see the pattern lol

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
LOVE (SIAM SHADE)  yes love is regretable isnt it xD

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
DNA (Hideki)  my dna makes me love? well technically its probably the reason why I like laughing about things others dont xD

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
あなた(You) - L'arc en ciel   YES!!! YOUUU whoever is reading this xxDDD

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED
裏切りのない世界まで(Until there is a world without betrayal) - RAYFLOWER   this means I wont marry I guess? XDDD

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
My baby Japanese - BUCK-TICK  yes I am afraid of my own japanese xDDDD

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
蘭鋳(Ranchuu) - ムック　 a ranchuu likes me? a goldfish? XD good to know

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
UMBRELLA - BUCK-TICK  true..I was always annoyed by my ugly umrellas

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Happy?  - SIAM SHADE    so i guess nothing hurts xDD

WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS ENTRY?
大阪レイニーブルース(Osaka Rainy Blues) - 関ジャニ∞　 okay! ö_Ö