Actually there is not much to talk about

because I have like none freetime right now.
I really started to cherish my less freetime. But you know like that you really start to enjoy your private life more cause it becomes more precious.  Too bad is that with one part of your brain you are always at work cause you can't stop thinking about the people you have there.
As for freetime...well I have nothing to talk about. THat less time I have I use just for chatting and washing my clothes..oh and showering.
Apart from that I do nothing..eating the rest of food I have..well like this I might survive till saturday when I have weekend off but there is like no time to buy stuff right now. XD
When I come home in the evening at almost 10pm I am going into the shower right away and then start to wash 3-4 things :/ maybe I should just leave it for later when I have a free day off but you know the more you collect the more you have to wash. And if I wasn't washing anything in a long working period without a day off (like the 9 days soon) it would get troublesome. And in just these 2 working days I was already lucky that at both days I did something wrong with my shirts. first time it somehow got dirty on the arm and the other one today..well I had to write a lot today so I ended up also writing by mistake on my shirt by accident with my biro some times..wtf >_< I am such a clumsy person..and yesterday when I wanted to wear this one shirt in the morning I put toothpaste on it..you know toothpaste is evil...even if you try to clean it right away it wont work out cause when its dry again the toothpaste is still on the shirt..what annoyance.
I am thinking of going home in my 3 days off-row in 2 weeks  but it's expensive..I can't afford 40euro just for going home in the first month cause payday is just at the end of august...and then next month will be also sad cause I have to buy books for school. and all school months are sad cause it costs 150euro per month >__< so if I think about it...next month I have hmm...about 200euro left...lol but I am at home at that time..so hotel mama will make me stay alive I hope.  I should really try to live with the minimum of food. XD But you know it's alright to live just with bread. at the end of september I should be able to feel alive. lol. oh not money talk. I hate that. But it's just for my existence and nothing else for now. You know that I am a stingy person so no one can easily convince me to buy something, not even fandom related stuff.  ANd if I think about it, I would rather buy 2 same albums of DETROX to support Hideki than to buy one single of Kanjani. That's not biased but just because I know Kanjani have enough supporters. If it's Kanjani or any Johnny I don't have the feeling that it has any meaning to them cause if I buy it or not doesn't affect their rank 1.  I know if everyone thought like that they would be crap too but is it even something special for all those johnnys to be rank 1? no.it's pressure because if they dont rank nr. 1 they failed)..I mean what's the goal of all those johnnys? do they have any goals in their career? What they do is always the same. While so many musicians dream of playing in the tokyo dome someday, it's something natural on tour for them.
I noticed somehow idols must have a quite boring life.
Anyway I would rather like to support an artist who appreciates when the music he/she made by her/himself is ranking higher. The goal is one but it's not about reaching the goal right away. And then again, I also know that my support also reaches the right person.

Well somehow I am still shocked that HE replied to GEO. But now...we are both annoyed by HIM cause he doesn't answer anymore but well he's not online so this is probably nothing to be annoyed by...eeeeh...yeah there is not much to talk about but still it turned out as a novel again X

lalalala

Forget to take the digicam along with me yesterday that's why I was only able to take crappy pics with my notebook webcam o.O






probably hard to imagine how the room looks like cause I neither took a pic of the table nor of the door and big wardrobe XD oh and not my bathroom...and not the kitchen either. Anyway room is nice but I don't feel well. Sick sick >_< really getting more horrible with each day so it feels like at least X.x but you know something which doesnt kill us makes us only stronger..but for some reason that quote isn't valid.
tomorrow is my first working day. yesterday I got my school cone! NO JOKE! I really got one XD
let's see how it works out. I will already make 3 crosses when the first 4 weeks are over and when I am going back home. lol
Earlier my mum phoned me...sounded all lively..not my mum but ion the bg I heard my niece...my aunt...and somehow I felt like playing skip-bo. But you can't play skip-bo alone...boo T_T still need to fill out my interest list and such things (T__T) I feel like doing a survey~
Guess I should also have a shower soon. bah I hate it you know xD
that's all for now...