I reached it!

Yes I reached this kind of point in my Hideki adoring finally!
What kind ???
The bashing point XDD

Actually that is and was always my favourite point when it comes to Ryo. because at the point when you start to realize that a person you like has not only good but  also weak points the person becomes more human. XD
In the beginning it's always like: Oh yes perfect! (through the rose-coloured glasses XD) although you see the weak points too but it's like..even so they are not visible. Well in the end it doesn't make the people less likeable but it shows somehow more personality. Of course, it's also subjective.
Like for example my mum got pissed off the day before yesterday coz she feels like I don't like her and treat her like junk. Well this is not true, but I think coz I like her I have to show my true self. And if my true self is in a bad mood I show it.
Everytime I am sighing while walking upstairs she asks: "What is it???" And I am like "It's nothing." coz in these moments it's really nothing. I don't know why people always consider sighing as something is bothering you.
Well truth is my voice is not really a friendly one..it's quite deep so it can be easily seen as "moody" no matter what I say. That's why I always try in public when I talk to strangers to make it sound friendly. But in fact, when I do so I personally think it sounds fake, just because I KNOW it's fake in those occasions. (>_<) But I don't want that strangers think I am unfriendly so I have no other option...(T_T)

Another thing. Since I lost all my pics (+ all music which wasn't on my ipod) ..lets say..my personal Ryo picture collection about 11gb or what it was I decided to let it be. It's not like I am sad. In the end I think it was such a waste of time collecting pics. Pics are there to stare at them .but if you have thousand of pics of the same people it somehow feels wrong. Why do you collect thousand of pics of people you don't know but have like none of your friends and family you collect. That's something when you start to think about: Who are the people important to your life, those who make you happy and those you can always talk to when you feel down or bored.
Right now I have the feeling everything is fading.  Almost all the people I love are either already gone to far away places or are going in the next few months. And no matter if I say: Distance doesn't change anything, in the end it affects friendship a lot.
This is bothersome...coz in the last years although they are all so close even then meetings were rare. I don't think it's coz our friendships have become weaker or we just don't care for each other anymore, it's somehow...well I don't know what you call this. It's like as if time is frozen but even so it's running..but then when you look back...so much time passed by but the feelings are still the same. Such a feeling.

Hmm I think I will go to bed now. XD

Ah before I forget it...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HA-CHAN!!

Ich hoffe du kriegst uch heute zum Bday Kuchen! (Wenn Mario der Fresssack nicht alles ufffrisst >__>)

Back from Connichi .______.""""

Nun ist es wieder vorbei...ich hasse das und ich habs immernoch nicht realisiert.. T_T also das es vorbei ist. Dabei war es so ein schönes Gefühl mit den Leuten unterwegs zu sein, spass zu haben und zu wissen, dass sie einen lieb haben <3  Danke Franziska, Maria, Bea, Wencke, Steffi und Stefan für die schöne Zugfahrt..durch euch wurde sie viel zu kurz..dabei waren wir 22 stunden (mit Zug und Wartezeit xD) unterwegs O_o;;; Davon abgesehen, dass ihr 6 das hier nicht lesen werdet ~D:
Nun zum eigentlichen Event..Samstag wars heiß...scheiße ich werde nie wieder einen Kimono tragen bei solch großem Event..das war ne Tortur... *ritz* >D
Gut wir sind also morgens um halb 9 in Kassel angekommen und fuhren dann erstmal zum Zeltplatz...schon da wusste ich..es kann nur lustig werden am Abend nachdem ich -Sensenmann- , den wir schon bei der LBM kenngelernt hatten 2 Zelte wieter entdeckt hatten. xD Dann gings ans umziehen und dann auf zur Stadthalle. Ja und dann tat man halt das was alle anderen Leute da gemacht haben '_____'  Abends gab ich für meinen Trupp ein bisschen Alkohol aus, den wir dann schön aufm Zeltplatz verzehrten.....ein Grund warum ich am Abend nicht mehr beim Lemon Juice Konzert war. Keine Lust und keinen Nerv mehr dafür. 1 Stunde schlaf von Freitag auf Samstag im Zug hatte wohl wirklich nicht gereicht xD.

Am Sonntag wars dann schon bequemer. Davon abgesehen, dass wir unsere Taschen erst zum Bahnhof bringen wollten.. zum Einschließen und dann 2 Stunden verschwendet hatten, weils keine Schließkästen gab °____° Aber sonst...ja ganz toll. Als Domyouji sah ich eher aus wie einer von kamikatz *hust* Aber nunja...egal xD

AUsbeute bei der Connichi:
+ nichts gekauft (Ich war geizig und wusste nicht was ich kaufen sollte °___°)
+ 15 Fotos (Zu faul zum Fotografieren)
+ Trauer T_T Ich will meine Dears wiedersehen >_________< Aber nur noch ein Monat dann gehts zum Japantag und 2 Tage später wird Sushis 18. in der KaraokeBar in Berlin gefeiert <3333

Gut..das wars von mir...irgenwie fühle ich mich gerade wieder so allein. >_____<"

Und morgen kommt endlich der langersehnte Friseur was für ein Glück *__________*

Edit: Ich will das Suppe kommt, ich will wieder mit ihr Reisbällchen machen und RPG schreiben und so ;______;" miss ya darling T^T

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yeah finally i am home again hrrhrr~ *~*
the two weeks were great but i think...home is still the best place ^________^
hmmm my stepsister asked, whether i ate much more in the last two weeks because she thinks i became fatter oO;;;;;;; hehe...my belly didn't change. it's still the same fat belly |D
my mum tidied up my room höhö~ *_* i knew it....she always does that when i am off for two weeks <3 okay she didn't tidied up all...just my garderobe <--- biggest problem to tidy up XD"aaah well ...i did some  pictures with my mobile phone from the last two weeks XD so sad ..i didn't make any when i was with Suppe-chan T___T but i think it is better that way....so there aren't pervert pictures included *LOL* : - |

McDonalds the first time - 3 hours :D

 

 aha this is hildegard and koppu-chan  nya~ she's a really kind person <3 she is going to sew kimonos for me and my cousin which we will wear at connichi |D
In addition to that she will gimme her blazer so that my domyouji cos will be look more rich boy *LOL* i really will be a psuedo-domyouji but who cares...i guess my cousin will get more attention because she will dress like domyouji's mother haha~  XD  so if you will see two strange people in white kimonos on saturday and a strange boygirl and an awful dressed girl on sunday it will be us!

haha brunhilde eierkopp and me. anyhow i have the feeling that i shouldn't be german. my eyes are too schlitzy T____T"

 I am beautiful, ne? hopefully i will win a prohackfresse competition someday  xDD

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i really want this dog!!!! he's the fluffiest thing i have ever touched ;________; i want to touch "Max" again....when i am an adult and out of school i want to have the same!!! aaawwww~ T~~~~T problem:  he's still a puppy and will become much bigger!!!!! Q_______Q he should stay the same >_<

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I coulnd't stop my cousin to take this photo....hmmm how could I???? XDDD anyhow i really like this blanket...T___T and yes i was sleeping!!! it's not pseudo-sleeping xD

haha this was the second time in mcdonalds. we were so poor to buy three cups because my cousin was so greedy and had to buy 20 mcnuggets just for herself!!!! okay i helped her to eat it <3 ...btw. my hair looks blond in the pictures!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaargh~ strange oô

in the evening hildegard and i thought.. yuna (my cousin) could try a new hair style...so we teased it a bit xD

the Result

 

yes! XDD it looked so awesome hrrhrr~ >D sad to say that we forgot to spray hairspray in her hair T___T so it was a easy way for her to comb it D:  ------------>

but it looked fluffier after this session XD

yeah that's it...ah ,,,, here....i dunno whether you have it already but it's the first KittyGYM song, hmm it's out of question whether tototara owns it! :P

Edit: new MUCC pv! :D interesting o-O;

Hörnchen loves Schwarzfahren!

Hello~ i am back from life-without-internet  :D
yosh! the last week was great <3
the whole week i was with my suppe-chan ...we were together for 2 weeks O_o i think that's a long time but it didn't seem that long for me o_o
when going by car to her house in kunow (it's a little village near Schwedt/Oder | Brandenburg xD) her mum payed caramel aisukuremu for us for free *_* ooh i didn't think that caramel aisukuremu is that delicious O___O
suppe-chan's family was really nice *___* they also have so many pets O_o 2 puppy dogs <3 a kitten *-*, 2 rats <3 , fish and a little bunny O_o *counts* did i forget anything? o-o hmm i guess not...but i really loved the pets <3 hmmm i know ...it isn't really interesting and i don't have any pictures o.o" but who cares that's my journal so shut up! D: XD

on tuesday we went to "wasabii" oh she lives in a dark room without any windows..okay there was one..but it was a little one... you know such a normal window as usual in cellars oô that night from tuesday to wednesday i didn't sleep very well T_T it was a double bed and we slept there with 3 people...and i slept in the middle in the gap O_o" it hurts a bit but i am still alive...so hurra!

on wednesday we had really and i mean really really really great breakfast *_________* wasabii did scambled eggs and i ate buns with peanut butter mmmh yummy *___* and of course i drank delicious cappuccino *_*
in the afternoon suppe-chan's mum went to wasabii's house and then we went to the videothek to borrow two jackie chan movies <3 aaaaaw~
so great *~* which we watched in the evening together with suppe-chans little sister and lukas  the brother of suppe-chan's stepbrother <3

thursday  was the best day of the week i guess...we went to berlin in the morning to fetch suppe-chan's cousin who really looks like a guy! but she was so nice *______* she always wears hiphop clothes and her haircut is more punky o_o" a bald head with a little stripe of millimeter hairs in the middle +.+ we went to so much cafés i can't imagine anymore but at first we went to the Neo tokyo....oh yeah....i was there the second time and i had a bad feeling again! the athmosphere in this shop is terryfying....these dark dark girls who are talking about dir en grey and gazette with the seller oh yeah really "interesting" yeah i mean why do they say "oooh the gazette concert is this weekend" but it is nothing new i guess. berlin's wiesel are awful we all know! XD
ah yeah well i bought vol.5 of Love mode and a debut manga calles "kiss" by eiki eiki oO; mmmh the second manga wasn't a good choice...i thought there is a little bit more yaoi but there wasn't T_T aaah yeah and i took the mucc flyer thing with me...i didn't want the 12012 one >_>""""

after this we took the subway....because we wanted to find a café to eat some aisukuremu *_* yupp we wanted to go to the arkaden one....mmhh but in the subway there were two guys who controlled us and ....we had to leave because stupid suppe-chan didn't write her name on the brandenburg ticket but the one of her grandma who was shopping by foot >O< ....-_- they grabbed our personal datas and gave us really nice bills with transverance things oO
but in general the day coulnd't be better because in the train when going to berlin we were controlled too and had to pay 3,50 € becuase the brandenburg ticket wasn't worth till 9 a.m and it was 8.30 a.m....yeha i know ...nice world -.- and it was the first time they controlled us at that time °_°

well well...after we were checked by this subway guys we went to the arkaden and bought aisukuremu >Ö< the day was really fucked up i thought but eating sushi in the end before going home by train in the evening saved the day <3
so i must make advertising for the asian restaurant thailand bla dunno how the reste is called...but it's located in berlin's central station and there works a really cute waiter , ha! XD you must go there !! nice personal!!!! and so on....

yesterday it was more realaxing at suppe-chan's
i slept very long and watched a little bit tv~
in teh evening i went to my uncle's flat <3 and now i am alone and getting hungry o_o"
tomorrow i will meet hildegard and maybe brunhilde eierkopf in GONDROM in the OC in Schwedt/Oder ...we want to eat ugly fast food in mcDoof. *-*
and the day after tomorrow i will go to berlin again to fetch my cousin at berlin's central station XD perhaps we will eat lunch again in the thai restaurant *___*"y

*~*

Heute war ein toller tag *O*
letzte nacht schlief ich mit nudel-chan in einem bett juchuu <3 suppe-chan wirds mir hoffentlich verzeihen ^^" dann sind wir heute nachmittag ins odi center und ich hab wieder 2 leute kennengelernt +.+ steffi hat sich ne riesen sonnenblume gegkauft aus nanu nana damit wir sie morgen beim konzert finden! also sollte wer morgen ne wedelnde sonneblume vor der halle sehen...bin ich nicht weit! xD wir waren im burger king und danach mcdoof um über alle menschen abzulästern die reingelatscht sind. läster schwester forever! X3 danach sind wir zu Steffi gegangen und haben einen japanischen horrorfilm geguckt +_+ furuko-chan *____* danach sind wir nochmal um halb 10 abends durch die ganze stadt gerast um den rest von dir en gay zutreffen *_* toto~ love ya forever *O* *nasenbluten bekomm* |D~ wir waren aufm spielplatz und haben in der dunkelheit nen bisschen fanservice betrieben *hust* o_o" gut dass meine hose den sand so schön wieder ausspuckt...in einer art von dem haado gei dance! *ö* dann waren wir bei wenkes hütte und hben ne talkshow gemacht <-< da wurde mir klar....totchi ich will dich *¬* xDDD der abschied fiel sehr schwer aber nunja morgen gibs ja ein wiedersehen ;Ö;" leider ist mein onkel so konservativ und lässt uns wahrscheinlich nicht mit unserem dears zurückfahren morgens um 6 ;______;" ich will aber >________< *kleines kind spielt* xD" naja vielleicht kriegen wir ihn noch umgestimmt ich will doch bei meinen schwedter dears bleiben und noch nicht so schnell von ihnen getrennt werden ;__; mir egal ob ich dafür am sonntag ne leiche bin (>.<)

Countdown

der countown läuft...
nur noch eine woche dann ist es soweit...und was wäre schöner als wenn die woche bevor der spass losgeht, nicht noch etliche ätzende dinge mit sich tragen würde? ja der satz ist seltsam aber naja X_x
und morgen wieder seifenkisten in der straße nebenan...das wird nen kurzer schlaf würde ich dann sagen...aber naja nichts was...scheiße...jetzt hab ich meinen hacken in den aschenbecher gestüppt -___-""
Heute waren Sushi und Yunchen da *O* das war ne klasse nachmittag auch wenn mein inernet ne zeit lang lahm gelegt war...
und ich werde herr hongo aus mila superstar cossen aufm mexx sommer..wuuh~ das heißt...wenn ocame mitspielt weil er ja dann gerade zu der zeit bei mir ist ö.ö ich will dahin schatz :D~~
Wir werden das Mila Superstar opening nachspielen..das heißt ich darf mila superstar aka Sushi mit volleybällen bewerfen bis der arzt kommt...muhahahaha *_*V
aber bis dhin ist noch ein langer weg..und geschichte *drop* da werd ich jetzt mal wieder ran um das letzte...das selbstverständis der humanisten in stichpunkte zu fassen X.x
desweiteren könnte ich die website noch weiter aufbauen..oder besser gesagt die mäbel reinstellen wie [info]shizahandu sagen würde xD~
und ff schreiben wäre auch nicht schlecht aber ich glaube dazu werd ich heute nicht mehr kommen aber wenn ich mich beeile und sie mich nicht alle im msn zutexten, könnte ich das womöglich sogar schaffen *_*