Don't really know anymore...

if I really want to do this.
But in fact I don't know anything anymore...all I know is..I will do it today or rather tomorrow and the day after tomorrow...if I get it and feel comfortable with it, it's fine. But in case I realize it's not something I want to do, well it's fine too but then I am at zero again.
The choice is big and difficult.

Anyway..Bye!
Although you dont notice that I am gone for 2 days as I dont update everyday here :P